So it’s no secret that I haven’t blogged in months. I told myself over Christmas break that I would blog, but the time slipped away from me. A four week break from school sounds like plenty of time to get in a few blog posts.. right? But I totally failed at that. I had four weeks to try to catch up on everything that I had missed out on during the fall semester.. including time with friends and family.
“Okay. It’s fine, you’ll find some time to blog this semester!” That’s what I told myself as I entered the spring semester. Then I blinked my eyes, it was May, and I was registering for my final semester of nursing school, which brings about all.the.feels.
I’ve missed blogging. But once I hadn’t blogged for a while, even if I did have snippets of free time, where technically I could have written a post, I didn’t. I became scared of WordPress. After not blogging for months, I lost momentum. I lost confidence. The idea of writing a post and hitting submit, for whatever reason, was daunting and I felt like I was unable to complete the task.
Recently, I’ve felt God tugging at my heart and softly whispering in my ear to open the laptop and write. It doesn’t matter if I haven’t written in months or if it sounds a little rusty. God called me to blog over a year ago, and I only halfway followed, because I stopped blogging in August. I followed when it was convenient, but when life got in the way, I stopped.
Even though I placed blogging on the back burner and didn’t fully follow where God was leading me, He never got angry with me or upset with me. He simply whispered to me that blogging was something He wanted me to fulfill for HIS glory. If that doesn’t paint a picture of how loving and merciful and kind God is, I don’t know what does. For months, He was patient. For months, He did not chastise me. For months, He still called me beloved and cherished even when I ignored his call to me.
I am so thankful for a Father who lavishes love upon me and who swaddles me in mercy and grace. I am thankful for his persistence and forgiveness.
“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” -Romans 5:8 (NIV)
We all fall short. We all sin. But Jesus died and took our sins, all out of LOVE. A love that’s so vast, so deep, and so incomprehensible to our human brains. His love is perfect. His love is something we can’t deserve, earn, or buy. His love is poured out on us, freely. His love is eternal. His love gives life.
My prayer today, as I return to blogging and I return to where Christ has called me, is that you’ll feel His love in the same way that I am as I type this post. I pray His love will meet you right where you are, that it will surround and engulf you, and that you will draw near to Him.